I Have Stopped...

I have stopped

Knitting,

Drawing,

And reading, books I like.

I have stopped

Laughing,

Smiling,

And enjoying, every second instead of every week.

I have stopped

Trusting,

Caring,

And praying, as often as I have.

Instead, I have started changing,

Let the busyness consume me

Tried to make 24 into 34 hours, which still wasn’t enough.

I have changed myself

In order to please more or push away people,

In fear of losing or hurting them.

I stop asking for help from God and looking for help from man.

Slowly with out knowing

I stopped...being me 100%

I dropped to 98%, 87% 75%

Now at 20%, more than half is gone.

I have stopped

And started changing.

Not for people or me, but for him,

Him who gave me breath and blesses me everyday.

The same him that loves me, more than any human word could say.

So bye bye the to myself that has change for the world and man,

And Hello to myself that changed for the one that has created man.

       It is sad to start something and not finish it. This can be seen as better than quitting, but still frown down upon. I have started many things and, “took a break” as I tend to say nowadays. However, this is the month of August, I am starting a new school, gonna meet new people, learn new things (about life, myself, and others), find new ways to evangelizes, and over all just get my life in order (spiritually, mentally, and physically). I am going to set small goals*, finish them than move on to other goals (very important).

My first goal is to give birth once again to all my creativeness that has slowly died thru out the years. Wish me luck; above all continue to pray for me, as I pray for you. ^^v. 

*It is better to set small goals than big ones, why? Reasons being is at least you have a better chance at finishing them and this gives yourself encouragement to move on to harder and bigger goals.

April Shower, Brings May Flowers

May is almost here!!.....and I am back for good. 

The month of May, I am gonna track my face (yay....-_-), because everyone and their mama got a problem with it. I seem to be breaking out, I noticed it but I don't got much to say about it. For some reason everyone that I know got something to say about my face (to me or behind my back). I eat healthier than most of them, my only problem is CHEESE!!! (oh how I love cheese :3 ). So for May bye bye cheese, hope to not see you soon!! And I shall be using new face products.....and finally exfoliating my face weekly (I will try my best not to forget). 

Pray for me, to have strength to stay away from cheese. ^^v. 

New Product for My Face

I Didn't Turn My Back.

       Now don't think I turn my back on my blog, because I didn't. Sadly, I just haven't been publishing new post though. However, I write post and save them to draft...not knowing if I should publish them or not. Therefore, my poor post sits there in draft waiting for my to publish them. Nevertheless, I didn't. Therefore, this post is a fill in.
       It is the New Year; I just finished my winter semester, which wasn't as bad as I thought. I learn not to spread myself too thin. Still smiling despite all the things that try to take my smile away. Working on staying in touch with people. Therefore, this means a lot of hanging out, facetime, phone calls, and texting. 
     OOOoohh, before I forget to mention I wanna thank my church family for they are amazing and a blessing, lucky for me I get to see them once a week. THe church youth is working on a newsletter to spread the Greatness of the Lord with others. At first it was rocky, but that is okay because we are getting somewhere. In addition, I wanna thank everyone for sticking it out. We started in December and now it is almost March I think that is huge. You should check it out :) River of Truth for Youth. 
       Anyways I will not let this "not posting for years" happen again. ^^v.